My Christmas gift.

This year for christmas, as I think I mentioned before, my Mom and Dad took our family to Ski Beech, NC. It started because I wanted Brandon to see snow for christmas, and it became a wonderful family vacation, and my Uncle Johnny came and stayed with us, bringing his awesome girlfriend and my two cousins. It was an amazing trip, just too short haha. We sledded and played in snow and snow tubed and my cousins snow boarded. I was extremely jealous, but it was too expensive for me to try. So we went shopping in Boone and Vaalle Crucis instead. It was really awesome to spend time with everyone though. Especially my brothers girlfriend Jessie, she is really really great. We'd hung out before, but I think we got a lot closer over this vacation. I'm excited for her and my brother and their future.
One store we went to was called Fred's. This place has been open everyday for 30 years. Literally, never been closed a day. They had a gift shop, ski shop, and little resuraunt. And we met Fred. He was delighted to take a picture with us, we felt like we were meeting a superhero. It was a cool experience.
The cabin we stayed at was gorgeous. Our room was particlarly splendid, because we had two bunk beds and four teenagers. I was the only girl, but it was better than I thought. Brandon and my cousin Cole wrapped my other cousin Mason into his bunk bed with seran wrap. Hilarious watching him get out in the morning. But don't think they were clever, it was all my idea! I told them to do it while I was asleep, cause I would no doubt laaugh and wake him up.
What was really cool about the house was that on the bottom floor where we stayed they was a big plyboard on the wall, and in sharpie someone (I'm assuming the houses private owner) Wrote for everyone to write their favorite bible verse and their name. It was full of verses, at least a hundred names. Jessie and I both contributed. But I figured that there must be at least a year of verses on this board, if every week about 2 people wrote. It blew my mind, that for a whole year, noone slandered the board. I guess that lack of faith in humans is what I've caught from living in a city like Ocala. I feel like if we had something like that here, there would be at least one person a month who wrote obscenities all over the board.
Maybe it's just becase it's so beautiful there, even the people who don't believe in the Lord can have a gentle enough heart to respect those who do. Or maybe be surrounded by the natural beauty f the world He made compelled them to even look up the verses they saw or find their own to write. Or maybe by chance no non-believers have rented that house. Who knows.
But I definitely think surrounding make a difference in a person's faith. It's all about perspective. When you live in a city like Orlando, or sometimes even Ocala, it's hard to see God through all the secular problems around you. Or when robberies and rapes and murders cover the newspapers, who finds it easy to believe the Lord saved us? The world is beautiful, and I think the more you escape and see that, the stronger your faith and love for God is.
Anyway, I had an amazing time. It was only a few days, but I got away from my troubles and work for four days, and enjoyed my bible,  the world, my family, and my lovely boyfriend. It was a great christmas gift.
I keep reminding myself how great the trip was, instead of focusing on the fact that I'm at work, not at my grandparents house for christmas. Boo.

Pants without the button.

I have this pair of pants that I loved, but the button fell off. Instead of sewing the button back on, I've gone a year working without the button. I try to avoid wearing them as much as possible, but every once in a while I'll put them on and wear a belt, just to cover that they're missing the button. But I spend my whole day annoyed by the fact that my pants don't have a button.

If we go day to day believing in God but not serving the Lord or putting your love to action, what good are you doing? Sometimes we can cover our lack of service to others, but we're only cheating ourselves. Faith is about others, just as pants are. (Let's face it, the only reason anyone wears pants is because of other people.)  I'm pretty sure that's a strong point of everything Jesus taught. Yeah, faith is good and keeps us grounded and happy, but that's the foundation. It doesn't stop there. Being a follower of Christ betters you, in order to compel you to help others.

What is faith without action? If you believe in the Lord as your savior, is believing enough? The pants are great, but they are missing the most important piece. Service is the button to the pants of faith. (That is no doubt the greatest line I've ever thought of.)

A faithful life devoted to God isn't an independent practice. Making a difference through your love and desire to honor God is the purpose of faith.

Whats goin down up in here.

So I'm usually not a big fan of "God did that cause he has a sense of humor" stuff, but this is ridiculous.
God HAS to be ROFLing right now. Seriously. I thought yesterday was insanity, it has nothing on today.
Today started out normal, breakfast, mason, workout, tutor, pick up Mason. Then,  got home and we had a crazy voicemail that led to a crazy phone call and the craziestttttt junk ever. I wish. So bad. That I could tell this story. But I cannot, because #1 there's just no way I can give it the justice it deserves through blogging. #2 I'm not allowed to, until the legal junk is settled or determined or whatever. But oh my word, trust me it's absurd. I wish an adjective existed to properly describe.
Anywho, there's also been other slight problems, but nothing is definitive or more than rumor, so no use discussing. However, I did find the key to Ryans house last night, the cat was fed and alive (Thank goodness).
Umm yeah, other than explosions of deranged dotage, Mom made turkey chili and BR and I watched "Just Go With It". Good movie, funny, but a bit drug out too long.
All I know is, nothing about this weekend has made sense, and I can't wait for my snow vacation. Mainly because my dog has the cutest snow jacket ever.

My morning.

So today, I woke up t my dog leaping onto my face howling because she heard a siren. Then I went to get breakfast but didn't have my cereal so I had to have another kind, which always throws off my day because breakfast keeps me from puking my medicine. Then, I puked cause of my medicine, and headed out for a run. I've been catsitting for my pastor, so I go feed the cat on my run. Well, after feeding last night I put the house key on the table by my couch, but my Dad bought an obnoxiiously huge piece of furniture. So our dining room was merged hurriedly into our living room, where the key was, So this morning, the key was gone. So I searched for 45 minutes, to no avail. Sorry Ryan, but I did double feed Spock yesterday, so he'll be good until I go hme to look for the key more afterwork.
 Anyway, After the missing key fiasco, I finally said whatever and did my run, but it wasn't relaxing at all. I got home after 5 miles, showered, and got ready for work. While getting ready, my parents decided to take the boat out today, which means they take my truck. So I rushed and grabbed all my stuff I need from the car, threw it in Moms car, and continued getting ready for work.
Got ready for work, grabbed my veggie-fruit smoothie, and jumped in the car. Went 2 miles, sipped my smoothie, and braked fast to avoid a cat running across the road. Smoothie exits cup, and lands all over me. So I turn around, go home and change again, and head back to work. I get to work, go to grab my key to open the showroom, but guess what! My key is on the keyring that goes to my truck, that Dad has. Wonderful. So I called Dad, he brings me my key, and I clock in half an hour late. And now I'm at work, wondering why I was even alive when I woke up this morning. And theres a spot of green smoothie on my shirt from where it was on the seatbelt after my spill. I pretend that's what the salesmen are staring at. Nasties.
But one of our customers just told me his car broke down in S.C and he got pnemonia, and is here to turn in his rental and buy a new car so he can make it back home in South Beach, where he hasn't been in a month. So I guess my 4 hours of disaster isn't so bad. Hopefully it can only get better now. Otherwise I'll probably just put myself into a coma for a while.
Spectacular.

Thanksgiving.

I find it peculiar that we have to have a day to remind us to be thankful for everything we have. Don't get me wrong, I love the holiday, fun, and family-ness, but it's funny that of all places, America needs a reminder to be thankful for what we have. In America, we have an abundance of food, so much so that nearly 3/4 the population is overweight.
We have shelter and electricity and shoes, and if someone is lacking just one of these things, begin the pity party.
Our biggest stresors are from work or school, or that boy or girl that hurt your feelings.
We forget that there are people in the world who would think even the most poverty ridden American cities were from a fairytale. And this isn't to make people feel bad while they eat, it's to make people think.
But we also have this freedom to be thankful for. I can say Jesus in my savior and I belong to the Lord, and be free of persecution. Sure, someone can say ew, or whatever people say about christians, but the fact they can say that is why we should be thankful. We are blessed to live somwhere that harbors the way God gave us free will, so that when we fall in love with him it can be sincere and true.

Anyway, as Americans, we have some strange antics.
When given a stable supply of food, we overeat and everyone is verging on obesity.
When given a surplus material things, too many become hoarders.
When given freedom to use alcohol, too many become alcoholics.
When given tobacco products, everyone has lung cancer.
When given the freedom (to a point) of controlling our sexual relations, we have 1 in 3 teenage girls pregnant.
When given TV, we become more obese, sedentary, and forget the world God created.
When given video games, we become obsessed with what those characters can do.
When given a couch or bed, we don't leave it.
When given a vehicle, we forget we can walk.
When given natural resources, we expend them until we've screwed ourselves over.
When given a beautiful world, we pollute it.
When given technology for communication, we gossip and hate.

The things we recieve are abused till they become a problem. We overuse. Everything. Taking this freedom for granted sucking the life out of every blessing introduced to us. Yet we need to be reminded to be thankful.
What if we recieve things that don't run out? Things can don't hurt us or others around us? What would happen if we, as christians, gave this country too much love for one another? A stable supply of Jesus? An abundance of examples of living in Christ?
Maybe we would be more thankful for what we have. And give to those who do need more to be thankful for.

Jesus died on the cross for YOU. Happy Thanksgiving.

Boom.

^That was my life exploding. Anyone who's known me in the past few years knows I've been studying horticuture. I was aspiring to be a landscape designer and all that. Well, nevermind. I have decided to nutrition and fitness. Everyone who knows me knows I'd be good for this lol. With this I can be a personal trainer and a nutrtionist for schools, hosipals, assisted living facilities, etc.
But as soon as I've graduated and I'm licensed, I would really like to take it to Ecuador for a year and work in a christian orphanage home. Then after that, come back home and start and fitness and nutrition club for teens battling eating disorders, to teach healthy body image and how to obtain a fit lifestyle Basically, a blonde Jillian Michaels. But I'll wear more clothes.
Anyway, in the immediate future, I'm speaking with an advisor from USF, I might trasnfer there for Fall 2012 to pursue this degree. It seems to be the best choice for where I am right now, so we'll see.
So yeah. This past weekend I took my cousin Allie to Light Up Ocala, and it was crap so I took her, her sister, and her sister's boyfriend to Mochi. Mmm. Then Allie stayed the night with me and we sat on the couch watching old crime shows after I got off work, then I took her hom. I love that kid, I wish she could stay with us. Hopefully she can come for Thanksgiving.
I'm excited about Thanksgiving, and family and such.And Sarah's gonna be home!!! Anyway, for my family thing, I'm making the desert, Apple Nachos! And I might make guilt-free apple pie, cause they're healthy and adorable. If you're interested in the recipes, hit it up.

I was born a girl, But I'm actually a man.

So the other day I was watching some generic talk show after morning work while I straightened my hair for afternoon work. The topic was transgender. Pre-note, I'm sorry if this offends any of the people that don't actually read my blog. But they had a handful of kids that were born one gender, but felt they should be another. A SIX YEAR OLD BOY DECIDED HE WANTS TO BE A GIRL. Really? Like he said one day Mommy I feel like a girl. If my Mom listened to what I wanted to be when I was 6, I would be a dinosaur-goat-man.
I know we're all about individualism and being ourselves, but sometimes a parent has to say sorry bucko, you got boy stuff. They also had a girl who thought she was a man, and got sex change surgery at 18. He/She took meds to not get puberty and all this crazy stuff. And when she started taking testosterone she had a vlog and was talking about like "week 3 and I have hair on my knuckles, it's kinda gross." Which baffled me, if she wanted to be a man. Anyway, her big catch statement was "I was born a girl, But I'm actually a man." No matter how much I don't agree with their stuff, that statement is like my life motto.

Things to do instead of having sex.

I read today that only 1 in 4 of 2012's high school freshman class will still be vigrins. ONE IN FOUR? Thats means 75% of America's 13 year olds have had sex. What?! That's ridiculous. Yeah, I believe that sex should be saved until marriage, but even people who don't agree with that must not condone to preteen sex. That's just gross. And I'm sorry, but my parents would beat my little white butt if I even thought about doing this now, let alone at 12!
I also read in an unrelated article that men's brains crave more sex when the economy down, to soothe their worries. But middle schoolers are not men! Why are they doing it more? Stress from work? Nope! Maybe they didn't make their bed, didn't get their allowance from Momma and couldn't buy pay for their xbox livewire? IDK. But this is absurd.
I came to the conlusion that maybe their just bored. So they decide to have gross underage undeveloped preteen sex? Ew.
Anyway, to help stop these kids from abusing their bodies this way, I compiled a list of things they can do instead.
-Read a bible for goodness sake!
-Buy a kitten.
-Play with kitten.
-^ Repeat, with puppy.
-Color. You're not too cool to color.
-Learn and play an instrument.
-Read any book, really.
-Walk around your neigborhood.
-Walk around your neighborhood in a gorilla suit.
-Go ouside.
-Ride your bike.
-Make stuffed shells.
-Weightlift (Which releases endorphins in your brain to ease your horny selves, js)
-Make a bracelet out of buttons.
-Build a rocketship out of cardboard.
-Dress up like an eyeball with two other friends, and play human bumper cars on the downtown square.
-Do math homework.
-Take dance classes (So you can actually dance, not grind, which is probably what started this whole nasty trend anyway.)
-Sing.
-Go to a play.
-Be in a play.
-Raise a farm animal.
-Play ninja by yourself in the middle of Walmart. (Even if you dot enjoy it, noone will lay you after that.)
-Build a blanket fort and don't invite anyone of the opposite sex inside.
-Wash your Mom's car. Because you don't have one. Cause you're 12.
-Plant flowers.
-Window shop.
-Make a scrapbook.
-Play any sport. Even chess.
-Walk the puppy you bought.
-Organize your school bag.
-Clean your room.
-Clean your closet, where you threw everything when you cleaned your room.
-Race ferrets.
-Rake carpet.
-Braid a cow's tail.
-Take your couch for a walk.
-Kidnap cabbage patch kids.
-Look up cabbage patch kids, because they were probably made before you were born. Cause you're 12.
-Pretend your a telephone.
-Answer the phone.
-Watch the news.
-Watch the first half of Supernanny, but not the second. You'll never have sex again.
-Debate politics.
-Learn about politics, since you prob don't know much.
-Call a infomercial number and speak Greek.
-Write a letter to your hero, telling them why they are.
-Write a letter to someone you hate, telling them why someone else is your hero.
-Make a turtle.
-Wash a cat.
-Test diamonds on your neighbors car window.
-Find an alibi for the above.
-Correct words that aren't typos on your friends facebook.
-Train your goldfish.
-Have a prune juice chugging contest.
-Puke prune juice.
-Teach your puppy to skateboard.
-Joust. Stupid pain builds character.
-Lay on the floor of Kmart.
-Walk in front of someone, and just sit down.
-Write a blog on how to stop kids from having sex.

Someone take this thing away.

I am completely abusing the ownership of a blog. Good thing noone reads. Anyway, the past month or so has been really good for the most part. Lots of work and school and such. Spent a really good day with my best friend a few days after Halloween. I hadn't spent time with her since August-ish, so it was fun. We had lunch at Cripsers (My faveeeee) then went to Easy Street, a local arcade. It's kinda run down, so we were basically the only people there except for the workers, who took special interest in us. Free games and such =awesome! We then met the boys at Sonnys, barely ate cause we were stuffed from cripsers lol. Then went to Walmart and Publix, and back to my house and played board games and ate low fat froyo till midnight. It was awesome. I've also spent some time with Kristina, but not nearly enough. Ditto for Brandon. But it'll be worth the work one day. Last friday Brandon and I made homemade power bars, with orange and cinnamon and pumpkin seeds and such. They were Delish, and without one I would not have been able to finish my 5 mile run this morning. Then this past sunday, we made whole wheat dark chocolate protein cookies. Also Delicious. But still kinda high in calories, so I had 2 as a treat and gave BR the rest. He pawned them off to his mom, she liked them. We also watched animal planet for a while, but it turned out to be the saddest lion movie ever. But it was an awesome night nonetheless.
Yesterday was good, except I did HIITS then "Kwanten" workout, which was like an intensified muwscle training version of HIITS. Doing them on the same day was a dumb idea. I puked. But it was a good workout. Today I ran (as aforementioned) and did Cardio X. Also a good workout. Then I met Brandon, his brother Brent, and Kyle at a pizza place. I watched them eats probably 100 slices between the three of them. I had Brandon get me carrots and sunflower seeds. Yums.
OMG Brandon has never seen snow. I told my Mom I wanted to take him to see it this winter. I was thinkin go to the Atlanta Aquarium and stay with one of my cousins if she was cool with it for like a day or two. Whats my Mom decide to do? Rent a cabin for four days in Ski Beech NC for my parents, me and Brandon and my brother Jimmy and his awesome girlfriend Jessie. It's pretty much gonna be like a 4 day long triple date. I couldn't be more excited. I didn't think my Mom would do something like that so random and unplanned, but I'm certainly not complaining! (Thanks Mom!)
Also, I've gotten way into yoga. And I have reached my goal of a 6 pack. *Cyber high five for shredded midsections*
Anyway, I'm about to clock out and go hang out with Brandon. I'm gonna try to write again before Christmas. :)

October 24th

So since the 19th, Ive worked, gone shopping with Kristina, had a goodevening with Brandon, and ended that stupid drama.
Work has been same old same old. But I am on the Honda softball team. I havent been able to make it to the pratices because of work, but I went to the batting cages with one of the guys. It was a lot of fun, and made me realize how long it's been since I've attempted softball. Once I got warmed up I did okay, so I think I'll be decent for the tournament. This morning and this afternoon a I worked at the church, which is an awesome job.
Saturday night shopping with Kristina was fun. You wouldnt believe some of the costumes we tried on. We didn;t get one cause I was being indecisive and unsure about a good halloween budget. But I think we have them picked after seeing all the options. I had dinner with Brandon at Sonnys on thursday, then we went ot Brusters and I tried to hula hoop without droppin it once the whole time he ate his ice cream. I dropped it three times. But in my defense, he was eating extra slow to be spiteful. Im still an awesome hula hooper. Then we went to his house and watched a movie. I think I fell asleep, I dont remember what movie it was. Today in between my two shifts at church I took a nap at Brandons house bfore he went to work.
After work, my aunt maggie and Jon, a family friend, came over for dinner. They had never seen our new house, so my mom was all excited about them coming. I thought the house would turn into a giant ball of flame with all the furniture polish and candles. But we're okay. Dad made steak, and made chicken for me. Aunt Maggie and my Mom are the closest of my  Moms six siblings, but havent spent much time together recently, so my Mom was happy. And Daddy and Jon are BFF's, so I sat awkwardly eating my chicken while four adults told stories with a lot of sexal innuendoes over steak at the dinner table. They're hilarious, but old people and sex jokes is just awkward. Especially since my Aunt thinks Im four. We put on a movie and she goes "This might be too violent for a little 18 year old." Really? This movie was marketed primarily for 18 year olds. But it's okay, she was only visiting. Anyway, I think that's it for now. The crabs are doing well, my workout schedule is right on track, and it's all good.
Oh, but Im freakin exhausted. I dont know why, but I've never wanted a day of nothing but movies, pajamas, and high protein low calorie fat free ice cream substitute with BR more. I guess that's what the holidays are for. I can't wait.

October 19th

Man Im bad at keeping up with this. Im bad at keeping up with everything though. Anyway I just got off work at Honda. It was humid and gross when I went in, and dark cold and crisp when I got out, I felt like I was in a time warp. Anyway, since last time, I've been working (surprise) and so has Brandon, so we havent gotten much time together. But it's good, I'm happy for him, and financial stability is important for us indiviually, and hopefully our future together. I think the time apart is going well, it makes the time together more important to us. Tomorrow is our day together this week, not sure yet what we're doing. Possibly playing softball with the Honda team, since I'm on the tournament team, though I haven;t been to practice yet. I was gonna go to the batting cages with some of the guys yesterday, but Easy Street is sissy ad closes in the rain. It was hardly raining, pansies!
Back on the farm, since last post, Will came home form bootcamp! Will was my best friend in Horticulture class during high school, and he signed onto the MArines and left for bootcamp shortly after graduation. I went to the Forest football game with him this past friday, it was a lot of fun. We'd never actually hung out outside of school, but it wasn't awkward at all. That's probably my favorite part about him, we both have an awkward sense of  humor, so togetehr it's never awkward. Brandon doesn't really like him, but if he got to know him I really think they culd be good friends. But, Will left Monday for another training, and I probably won't ever see him again.
Umm, as far as workouts, it's been really intense lately. I kicked my butt into hypergear, and wrote my own intense workot schedule for this whole month, loving it so far. I even set it up so that I can buy things I've been wanting or needing as I finish a good week or two. So far I've gotten some Victoria Secret stuff, new running shorts, and new Nikes! This morning I had a 3 mile jog and the mens health 300 workout. Dixie sat down in the middle of the jog, I think she's sore, getting back into running daily. When it was really hot I did more inside cardio since Dixie isn't good with heat, so we're getting back into the groove of it.
Ohhhh, on Tuesday I picked up my cousins Carly and Ally from school and took them to Mochi, first time for all three of us! I had no idea their school was in the butt crack of nowhere an hour from my house though, finding it was an adventure. But their front office lady is very good at giving directions, and I had an awesome time with them. They have kittens at their house, I almost stuffed them into my pockets.
This is skipping in time everywhere as I remember things I've done since last post, but at Youth Group Wednesday there was bats in the fellowship hall, it was crazy. We've had bats for a while, but they were like, swarming.
For this weekend, I'm hoping I can steal Brandon for an hour or two Saturday afternoon. I also want to steal our friend Maggie, she's a professional photographer in the making, and go to the pumpkin patch and pay her to take pictures of us. Then I'm going costume shopping with Kris, and possibly going to Fright Nights at silver springs after.
For our costumes, we're looking for some epic duo of some sort. My personal favorite idea so far is dress as two green peas and roll around in a giant pod. Also on the table : Mario and Luigi, Salt and Pepper, Buzz and Woody, Chip and Dale, Thing 1 and Thing 2, Mike and Sully (monsters inc.), Dori and Nemo, Smurfette and Sassette, two bats (to terrorize Ryan and Cassie, due to the churchs bat infestation) and lots of others. We are in quite a pickle, but we will figure it out when we go shopping. Then on Tuesday, she and I are gonna carve pumpkins and roast the seeds. I'm stoked, we haven't hung out in like 2 weeks cause she caught malaria or the black plague or something.
Theres been some drama, but it isn't settled so I won;t post about it. I dont think it willl ever be settled. It seems to be a matter of two different people who each believe in different truths. I feel like if someones truth is inconvenient maybe God put them in my life for a reason, to make me think or help change things. But it seems as though the other person thinks someone with an opinion inconvenient to them should be shunned from their life. But whatever works.
I hope if I plan to do something questionable, I have a good enough friend to slap me in the face.
Which reminds me, huge thank you shout out to Ryan and Cassie, for keeping me away from not so healthy for my faith decisions.
Hmm. I think that's all.
Oh my new favorite quote: Stop believing the world owes you something, it was here first.

Im at work.

Im blogging at work. Becasue it's raining, and people don't buy cars in the rain. The car salesman are in the back doing kareoke. So, I'm gonna blog. It's been a while anyway.
Since my last blog, Brandon got a job at Publix. He's excited, and I'm really happy for him. He's also working the "Fright Nights" at the theme park connected to the waterpark. Which means I wont see or hear from him on friday or saturday for all of october. But he's having fun and training to be a lead, which he wants pretty bad. I took him to dinner last night to celebrate the new job, then we watched Cinderella Man at his house, which was really good.
Last week we went and saw Courageous, which was the most amazing movie Ive ever seen. The worst review I read about it was "It was too religious" but it was advertised as a relgious movie, and relgion was the plot, so I'm pretty sure that critics underwear was just too tight. I cried and laughed through the whole movie, which I dont do a lot.
I also watched Soul Surfer with Kris yesterday, which was also awesome. Kristina is officially Kris. We went bowling with Allan and Kristina, and put fake names. idr allans name, but brandon was oedipus rex, Kristina was Kris Kringle, and I was Honey Love. Yeah, a stripper name. Anyway, Kris stuck. And I lost at bowling.
I've been going out a lot lately. Which is cool. High school sucked, so it's nice to get out and have real friends.
Speaking of real friends, Sarah is back in town. Idr when the last time i saw her was, but i remember it was a short poopy visit. Hopefully I'll see her this sunday.
I'm working in the nursery at my church anymore, I wont go into the details why. But I like it so far. And im excited to have 4 jobs. Im pretty determined to save as much as i can while im home not spending large amounts on anything in particular.
A couple days ago I bought a blackberry on a website for 50 bucks. It was brand new still in the box, like i had to unwrap the charger. i was really stoked about it, but nothings that easy for me. i can put it on my phone plan unless we buy the data thing, but dad refuses to. cause it would cost as much as the phone every month. But hopefully i can sell the phone for more than i bought it lol.
Also i got another workout from mens health magazine, the 300 that the actors in the 300 movie used. I LOVE it. And i found a new cardio on youtube, so my routine is completely changing, and im loving it.
And in english class i wrote a comparison.contrast essay comparing roy kroc and lucky luciano. and today i wrote an analysis essay on how to be a hermit crab. I feel like a pretty accomplished writer.
Too bad these guys are NOT accomplished singers.

Tuesday, September 27th.

It's been hectic. Kind of. So my crab that I was so excited about changing shells, Hutch, was pronounced dead. I went to lunch with Kristina, then we went to PetSmart and purchased Hutch#2. I asked the salesman if they die a lot during changing shells, he said it can be fatal. I said oh, that explains why he's dead. I got a funny look. Then I had to fill out paperowkr to purchase him. I'm pretty sure they spent more on the paper and pen to buy the thing, than I spent on him, since he was $5.29. Anyway, I took him home, buried Hutch one, and introduced Starsky to Hutch#2. Then I went to work, came home, nd Hutch #2 had already changed shells, and Starsky took his old shell! I thought it was crazy that I waited 4 months to see one change shells, and had 3 crabs change shells in a 24 hr period. Then this morning I woke up, did the baby to school thing, and a half hour of cardio. Then missed Humanities, went to English (which I was late for, and did my homework while walking to class) and went to the pet store again to buy new sand and mulch and a climbing tree for Starsky and Hutch#2. Their crabitat is pretty sick, but now I'm broke. er.

yeah

So I got home from work on saturday afternoon, and I had a swimming pool with a toilet in it in the middle of my bedroom floor. My dad was redoing the floors in my bathroom, and didn't want to put the toilet on my carpet. Average day in my life. Then I went and checked on my organic veggie garden, my green bean stalks are huge! I also put down some scallions and lettuce, soon I'm doing the starter trays for my tomatoes. I didn't have work sunday, so I went to church. Then I went and saw dolphin tale (very good) with Kristina. On the way to the theater we saw a tortoise, and she pulled over into the median so we could take pictures of it. I dont know why I never hung out with her before, she's great. We're goin to lunch today. Anyway, after the movie we went back to her house and Brandon and our old friend Allan came over. It was awkward cause we didn't have a plan, but it was nice tp catch up. We're all gonna hang out a lot more now, since all four of us are still in Ocala, and we've all been left behind by our friends to their "respective colleges" (Allan's favorite phrase) Also, my hermit crab hutch (his girlfriend is Starsky) is changing his shell, he looks so gross naked! I'm hoping tht shell changing is just a really slow exhasting process, cause he hasn't moved in 12 hours. I'm scared to touch him. I read that when they don't have a shell to hide in they play dead when a could be predator approaches, so maybe he's just really good at playing. That was my weekend. And I just finished my workout so I'm gonna go shower real quick and go meet Kristina!

9/19

Today has been a slow day. I drove Mason to school, tutored grocery shopped and picked Mason up. I need to go to the bank, but I definitely took a 2 hour nap instead. I wanted to hang out with Brandon bu he is working. I did make some more of my trail mix. Homemade trail mix is delicious, I'm obsessed recently. You can't go wrong when you make it either, you just throw stuff together. Oh, and at tutoring after we finished thesignments we looked at funny videos on youtube. It was great. And tonight I'm gonnna make a whole wheat white chicken spinach pizza for dinner, I'm excited. Also, my vegetable garden is doing well. I have green beans in the ground now, and I'm working on balancing the PH for my other fall veggies. I want to be able to eat a whole meal produced from my backyard, but I know that can't happen until I have my own place with chickens and more harvest space. Oh well. But now Dixie, my beagle best friend, is staring me down, so we're gonna head to the dog park.

Maybe this is heaven

So I was at work yesterday, and I randomly had a pretty intense conversation with one of the salesman. We were talking about religion, and he said he was raised catholic, but in adulthood he does not believe in the church, but he believes in some type of supreme being out there. I can completely respect that, since the church has been a bit twisted from time to time in history. But then we were talking about heaven and what's next after this. We joked around a little about what heaven would be like and such, and whether we would be in conscious or unconscious mind in the next life. But then he said what if there isn't anything else? What if this life is like "heaven" and this is it?It was a depressing thought for a minute, but I don't buy it at all. Once again I of course respect his opinion, it's fair to wonder. But I know there's something else. The world is too beautiful for this to be it. This world was not a coincedence. The Lord said there's more, and who am I to doubt that? Knowing there's more to this, and putting all my faith in the Lord feels right, and in history millions of hearts have agreed and been changed, and that can't be an accident. Loving God changes lives, it's just right like that. And it calls us to serve and love others as well. It just makes sense. After that conversation I finished up some social sciences homework about evolution, and continued to ponder about the after life. I left work and went to the end of the year lifeguard party at my old work, then to Denny's with a few friends after. Honestly, it was probably the best time I ever had as a lifeguard.  I feel bad for the waitress we had, but I think she was amused. Today I have to work, So I'm gonna go for a jog and get ready.

Catch up

I've never blogged, so its a good thing noone will read this. Anyway, I am currently a student at CF in ocala, no it's not a community college, it's a 4 year institution that only has a 4 year degree offered for business right now. Yeah, I know. I should've gone to a University, but I'm easily annoyed by college aged kids. Drinking and drugs and stupidity just makes me mad, and being a follower of christ, I thought it best to stay home away from all that. Plus, I was told if I go to CF it wil be paid for through my work in high school horticulture class. The two correspond, which is convenient. I, however, was the guinea pig for this, the very first person to intend completing both programs, and they lied. I got no grants I was promised. Which wouldn't be bad, if brght futures hadn't also lost my application, which my Dad has gotten angry about, and directed that anger to me, as if I work for bright futures and lost my own application. smh. But I'm working on it. But currently, I have 3 classes (I couldn't get a 4th because they were all full, another perk of community college -_-) Everyday I regret not going away for school, but I have hope it could still get better. My boyfriend also stayed home and goes to CF, but he has plans to enlist in something and do something stupid and dangerous. Don't get me wrong, I support that he wants to serve the country and has a calling for that, it just scares me. FTR, we've been together for 2 and a half years, I'm not one of those crazy "we've been dating a week and I'm planning our future now" kids. God has a plan for us, we just have to find it somehow. But now that you know what my boyfriend wants to do, I'll tell you what I want to do. I'm studying horticulture, and my immediate plan is to be a commercial landscape designer, eventually designing golf courses. But that's not my forever career, that's just to get me enough money to start my own landscaping business, specializing in pollution reducing, xeroscaping, and eco-friendly landscapes. Then, I plan to re-open my grandparents "Burton nursery" I grew up working in and be a wholesale producer/own some property and raise cows and lambs. I hope I can live in Kentucky, where my dads side of the family is from and owns countless farms and businesses and bascially the whole town of Plato, KY. But with Brandon enlisting, who knows. As you can see, I love agriculture. FFA was my life and what defined me all through high school, and now I;m trying to find myself without it. I also love fitness and nutrition and only eat all-natural. It just makes sense, but I'm always catching crap from my family and friends that I'm obsessed. But the way America's looking, health seems like a good thing to obsess over. Speaking of work-outs, I did a crazy one yesterday, Spartacus from mens health magazine. It's not bad just a lot of squatting, which isn't my strong point, so I can't feel my legs. I'm definitely wearing flats to work today, not heels. BTW I'm a receptionist at a car dealer. But I also tutor and drive a friends baby to school and back. Those are just side jobs, but those two side jobs double my weekly income from just te car dealership, so I think they're real jobs. For twwo summers I was a lifeguard at the local waterpark, but I didn't like the way everyone worked (they didn't, basically) and needed a not seasonal job, so I was happy to finally find another job. I've also recieved a Horticulture Professional license in my senior year of high school, which is I guess kind of  big deal. I was ecstatic, it wasn't easy, but it hasn't really done much for me yet. I think that's pretty much all I can say about me right now. This was kind of a background info one, the ones to follow won't be as boring, I hope.